I "came out" at work today.
I brought in cookies with pink and blue M&M's in them. (My boss's favorite cookies.)
I have gotten many hugs and congratulations.
The owner bought lunch for the whole office to celebrate.
They are all quite happy for me as they know this did not come easily.
I feel like a big fat liar. I keep thinking that I am not really pregnant. That I must have flipped my lid and people are just playing along with me until the men with the white coats show up and haul me away to the loony bin.
11 weeks yesterday.
When will this start to feel real?
I went to a toy/baby store the other day and looked at bottles and pack n plays and strollers. I walked back out just completely overwhelmed. I can't convince myself I actually need these things.
I have told everyone now. Everyone has been ecstatically happy for us. When will I start to be ecstatic myself? I am happy, oh so happy that this might work out. I don't live in constant dread or bothered by dbts all day. I just feel like the whole thing is a dream and I will wake up at any minute. I am not depressed or down, just in denial or something.
On the moving forward front, I am down to 100mg Prometrium once per day and the constipation is easing off a bit. Not gone all together quite yet, but getting better.